Love is like grass. If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain, it may eventually stop hurting. Now, maybe the stain ruined your favorite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time, it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell.
as fleeting as your wings
you came to me one day
like a beautiful butterfly
flying high on a rainy day
i saw you in all your beauty
your smile just made me say
you give me strength when you came my way
and how i wish i could make you stay
but butterflies for them to live
must be allowed to fly free
so spread your wings and fly away
you're in my heart come what may
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you gave me days of happiness that i couldn't ask for more.. i wish that what we had wouldn't be in vain. i want to be happy too, if not with you then at least with the memories of you. please don't make it hard for me than it already is. spare me the pain and just let me live a life without a strain. i will always be your friend even if you don't want me to. thank you for the gift of friendship, thank you for the gift of you..
..it's not that i don't love you
it's not that i don't care,
it's that when i look in your eyes
i can see you don't want me there..
...so even though it kills my heart
to have to let you be,
i have got to do what's right for you
and forget what's right for me.
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..today the tears finally fell.. the pain was so real it was practically tearing my heart out. i could only wish it didn't hurt that much but i was hoping in vain. why do i have the audacity to question God about the pain that i am feeling, when i never once questioned him when i was experiencing happiness in all its grandeur. lessons learned and lessons ignored; consequences would always be greater than you could afford.
i know that although the pain may eventually fade it could possibly stay as a painful reminder that i should never entrust my full happiness to anyone else because nothing is permanent especially people.. friends become strangers, lovers become friends.. and people leave. that's the bitter truth - deal with it, and live with it..
with two hands entwined
their friendship can't be far behind
til these two hands finally found
in true friendship they are bound
two hands, two hearts
more than friendship came to start
coz their two hearts though scarred
found something true when times were hard
two hearts, two minds
realized the truth they cannot hide
when these two minds think alike
there is nothing else to dislike
now these two minds need to think
knew they would loose it all in a blink
if there could never be promises of forever
she hopes their friendship survives it ever
although these two minds,
two hearts & two hands must part
a memory so real would ever leave its mark
their forever stays forever
if to forgetting they will say never
If you're not afraid
Of what love brings
Then endings are beginnings
Of beautiful things
It's a chance you'll take
A chance you'll win
If someone's gonna find you
First you gotta let them in
Coz love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
You might win it all or lose your heart
If you're not afraid
Of what you feel
Then try and keep it simple
Or try and keep it real
And if being real
Means you'll someday say goodbye
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts with one hello
Oohh...
Love begins with one hello
The hardest part is over
Now it's easy letting go
One hello is how it starts
Remember my friend
Goodbyes not the end
It's a circle you know
And it starts, starts with one hello
It starts with one hello
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.. theme from the movie When Love Begins ..
This was just one of the hundred flicks I watched with you. You are such a big movie buff and I am always awed by your sharp memory when it comes to putting actors' names and movies together. I will surely miss those days - just holding hands, eating late.. staying up til the wee hours. It gives me an excuse to cuddle up to you and me falling asleep before the movie is even finished; then you kidding me about my snoring and me vehemently denying it. I always look forward to that specific time I secretly call "me & you time" because then I always had you to myself and I live contented in my happy place.
It brings a sharp sting in my heart but it's not sadness I feel. I will always be thankful for that One Hello that I had with you. I will never regret having met you and letting you into my life. It will never be goodbye for me because I will always consider you one of my most treasured friends and I will always look back to our happy moments together. Thank you so much for the gift of you. :)
Not a day would pass in our lives when we aren't forced to make a decision. From the simplest question of 'What to eat..', 'What to wear..' and 'How to get to work..'; to the difficult task of thinking 'How will I be able to meet my quota?' or 'Should I take on this new job or stick to my old one?'. It is almost as conventional and as natural as breathing air. We live to decide and decide to live.
A Decision. An eight letter word. Simple but quite an ominous one that others would choose to procrastinate; trying to escape the inevitable. But that exactly is the word - try. You can always try to evade making decisions but in the end, you always need to decide.
Crossroad. A nine letter word, made up of two root words forming a compound word. A compound word that has a complex meaning. Wikipedia refers to it as an intersection of roads; or metaphorically as a place where other things - both physically and abstract - meet. I used to wonder what they mean by this.
As a child I often see crossroads from where I grew up. Thing is, it always brings me to where I want to go - HOME. For the people who grew up from where I used to live, you would know exactLy what I mean - a main road and up ahead is a branching of 2 or 3 minor roads. I also used to wonder why the need for this? Is it a shortcut to somewhere or just to slow traffic down? Basically it was there to help you reach your destination. Period. Metaphorically, I came to realize that life is full of crossroads. Not the roads we tread on, but the decisions we take on. And as we progress through life the crossroads we face become bigger, more complex and more menacing. And just when it seem as though you've passed the toughest of them, another one comes along.
Sometimes I couldn't help but think, if we were given a chance to live the last few years of our lives again would we choose to live it differently? If you'd chosen to live it distinctively, would you be any happier now? Would you be contented in your job? Would you still be in the same place you were before? Will you be in a better relationship with your friends or your special someone? But if you had lived it the other way, who is to say that that was the right way anyhow? Would it have saved you another heartache from a betrayal perhaps? If you would have lived it the other way, will you still arrive to the realization that you have grown because you chose to accept that your ways though not exactly the right way, has taught you the biggest lessons that you weren't able to find in books. Yes, you might've been hurt, disappointed, cried endlessly but you were capable of wiping those tears away and whenever they start falling just wipe them off some more. Life when we least expect it will offer us disappointments but it is the way we respond to them that makes the biggest difference in our lives. It is not in the paths we choose, but the actions we take after every decisions we make. You could always let the tears flow and flood you or you can buy a bigger hankie to wipe it all away.
To be or Not to be...
Should you be the brave who takes the road less traveled or be the wise who takes the safer and familiar one? I hope that whatever road you choose you will end up exactly where you want to be. In case it doesn't, it would be a long way back so keep moving forward. Life after all wasn't meant to be lived backwards. So if you feel that life has dealt you a low blow, stand up and roll with the punches. For if you stay slumped on the ground, life will pass you by without you noticing it and opportunities that you let slip will forever be gone.
Lately I have reached yet another crossroad in my life. I can't say I am any better in my decision making abilities than I was 5 years back, but what I am sure of is I come well equipped with the lessons from my previous blunders. I have grown better and not bitter and I am no quitter. I will choose to continue to face my crossroads because I am sure that no matter how difficult they may be, there will always be a silver lining in every cloud that blocks my sight.
So today when you come upon another crossroad - Stop awhile, Think thoroughly, Decide and keep moving forward. You may never know what lies ahead but never be afraid to keep moving on. For who knows the very thing that you might have been looking for is right there waiting somewhere down the road. Sing loudly, Live a life today, and let tomorrow take care of itself. Remember what they say - Stick to the fight when you're hardest hit. It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit!
Have a safe journey everyone. :)
