,, the hurt ,,

Love is like grass. If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain, it may eventually stop hurting. Now, maybe the stain ruined your favorite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time, it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell.

,, setting myself free ,,

as fleeting as your wings
you came to me one day
like a beautiful butterfly
flying high on a rainy day

i saw you in all your beauty
your smile just made me say
you give me strength when you came my way
and how i wish i could make you stay

but butterflies for them to live
must be allowed to fly free
so spread your wings and fly away
you're in my heart come what may


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you gave me days of happiness that i couldn't ask for more.. i wish that what we had wouldn't be in vain. i want to be happy too, if not with you then at least with the memories of you. please don't make it hard for me than it already is. spare me the pain and just let me live a life without a strain. i will always be your friend even if you don't want me to. thank you for the gift of friendship, thank you for the gift of you..

,, why ,,

..it's not that i don't love you
it's not that i don't care,
it's that when i look in your eyes
i can see you don't want me there..

...so even though it kills my heart
to have to let you be,
i have got to do what's right for you
and forget what's right for me.




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..today the tears finally fell.. the pain was so real it was practically tearing my heart out. i could only wish it didn't hurt that much but i was hoping in vain. why do i have the audacity to question God about the pain that i am feeling, when i never once questioned him when i was experiencing happiness in all its grandeur. lessons learned and lessons ignored; consequences would always be greater than you could afford.
i know that although the pain may eventually fade it could possibly stay as a painful reminder that i should never entrust my full happiness to anyone else because nothing is permanent especially people.. friends become strangers, lovers become friends.. and people leave. that's the bitter truth - deal with it, and live with it..

,, hearts entwined ,,

with two hands entwined
their friendship can't be far behind
til these two hands finally found
in true friendship they are bound

two hands, two hearts
more than friendship came to start
coz their two hearts though scarred
found something true when times were hard

two hearts, two minds
realized the truth they cannot hide
when these two minds think alike
there is nothing else to dislike

now these two minds need to think
knew they would loose it all in a blink
if there could never be promises of forever
she hopes their friendship survives it ever

although these two minds,
two hearts & two hands must part
a memory so real would ever leave its mark
their forever stays forever
if to forgetting they will say never

.. the nEed to f!Nd mysELf .. (the aRt of hEaLinG)..

.. the nEed to f!Nd mysELf .. (the aRt of hEaLinG)..

One Hello MV by Toni Gonzaga